Secrets

Day 6

We all have had secrets, right? Well, at least I know I did. There was a moment in time where I had somehow managed to fool myself into thinking that my secret sins that people couldn't see were hidden from everyone including God. Well, let me just say I was wrong, wrong, and more wrong!!! How could I possibly think for a moment that my secrets sins could be hidden from the All seeing , powerful and mighty God? I had to be a fool, right? There was a point in my life where I struggled with sexual immorality. Everything in my spirit would plead with me to flee from the temptation, but I would ignore it and go right ahead and sin against my body. The sad part was I tried to justify it as if I wasn't sinning against my body; forgetting that my body is the temple of the Holy Ghost. So, what did this really mean? This meant that not only was I sinning against my body but I was also sinning against the Holy Spirit which dwelled in me. I had become so ashamed and angry at myself. However, I also became blinded not realizing that my sexual immorality and my sinning against the Holy Ghost had caused Him to leave my body therefore causing my heart to become hardened against those sins. I struggled with feelings of emptiness, confusion, feeling lost and hopeless. But how great is God that He sent His only Begotten Son to die for my very sins. I was reminded that I was bought with a price, of innocent blood shed. Therefore, I had to come out of my sexual immorality and break that chain over my life. I needed to remember that the price that was paid for me in my entirety needed to glorify God in my body and in my spirit.  (1 Corinthians 6:11, 19 & 20).  God, I know Your Word is true and everlasting. What better of a life manual than the Holy Bible? I mean seriously everything that I have faced in life there has been clear instructions as to how I should or could have avoided it.  I am so in love with Jesus that I refuse sin. I refuse to justify it any longer. I refuse to play with sin as if it won't burn me. What I have learned during my period out of Christ and during my period of dryness was that I was bought with a price. Therefore, moving forward in both my spiritual life and in life I refuse to lower my standards to please anyone who doesn't understand the price that was paid for my life.  I've learned that the word "no" is a complete sentence and I have no problem telling anyone, No.  I refuse to replace God with anyone or anything. He takes precedence in my life at all times because my desire is to serve Him in spirit and in truth.. which means with my whole life, my body, my mind and my heart.

So, no matter what your secrets may be whether it is alcoholism, pornography, masturbation, fornication, adultery, stripping, prostitution, drug addiction or selling,  homosexuality and the list goes on... just know that there is no way for you to enter into heaven doing those things. You have to declare your freedom from those strongholds over your life and trust God  enough to bring you out and make you better.  Don't allow your heart to become so harden to sin that you turn from God and revel in your own sinful pleasures.  These things are only for a moment, but hell is forever. I say this to say, I've been there, I've done that, but I made a conscious decision to change my life because I love my soul and I know the price that was paid for it.  I have purpose over my life, I understand my value & worth and although my emotions haven't always aligned itself  with my mind knowing what I should do and shouldn't do... I've learned to allow my emotions to catch up with the sound mind that I know God has blessed me with in due time.

I made the decision to no longer go to church every Sunday as if that alone would get me into heaven. Instead I made the decision to live off the word of God and make it my source of life. One of the beautiful things about Christ is that His love is unconditional so when you recognize your wrong, repent and ask Him to enter your life, He begins to change and transform the things that you thought were impossible to change or let go of. God is so amazing and I truly love Him like crazy! This is what I call PERFECT LOVE. So, I'll end by saying this, people will often time look at me and stick up their nose saying... "you were just doing x,y and z not too long ago, but here you are now trying to preach to people about the very thing you once did." Well sister or brother understand that the Bible calls for righteous judgment, which means when you recognize the error of your ways and you depart from it and know to never go in that direction again, it would be wise for you to inform others of the judgment end result should they choose to continue in that particular sin. Furthermore, I know who I was out of Christ and she's dead and gone, so, now I rejoice in knowing WHO I AM IN CHRIS. After all  the latter is always greater than the former.

Keep me humble in your presence.